I am trying to wrap my mind around a few things lately, and, well, for some reason I can't. Let me empty my mind here and see if anyone could help me with some insights.
To be blunt, the past week has been CRAP!!! It just seems like every time I start feeling good about things something happens as if to say, "It still sucks here!"
It all started last Friday.
Last Friday was the first time in three years that I locked my keys in my car. Not that bad I know, but it was the only key that I had to my car, and it was inside. It cost $70 for a lock smith to come and take, literally, 10 seconds to get my keys out. On top of that, I found out that since I have a channel key, no one, not even the dealer, will copy or cut a new key.
Then this weekend of course my wonderful event at work.
Monday, thinking that all the bad was over with because Sunday was a good day, I rear ended someone. My first car accident, EVER! The best part of it was that my car had the worst damage.
Tuesday, my day went well so, yet again I thought all the bad was in the past. I know that's what I get for thinking.
Yesterday wasn't horrible, but wasn't amazing either. My friend Angie and I went to California Pizza Kitchen for lunch (I suggest it to anyone, AMAZING!). On our way someone driving a big truck almost ran into us. My heart stopped for a few moments. All I could think was two accidents in one week, I need to be exiled to keep this bad things from happening to my friends.
Then tonight, I was working on my homework. That can be bad enough sometimes. Peanut jumped up on my bed. Not that big of a deal. She lays on my feet and keeps them warm. But tonight she decided that it was time to do her thing. Well, let's just say it's going to be a long night doing laundry. Through the quilt, fuzzy blanket, sheets and mattress cover. All of it.
That is the briefest form of what has happened in the past seven days. I don't want to say it's luck, because that doesn't give credit or responsibility to anyone for things good or bad. I want to say it's karma, but I have done good lately. Angie says good things come after bad, but all I can think of is that May 17th is a long way away to wait for something good.
So if anyone has any advice on how to alleviate these bad things happening I would greatly appreciate it.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Today's Path: Help Me Understand the Past Week - PLEASE!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Today's Path: The Power of Harnessed Fear
Several times I have talked about fear. In a recent post I wrote about the power of harnessed fear. Well, truthfully, I have never harnessed my fear and used that power for what it should be used. That is until this weekend...
I stared fear in the eyes...I would have laugh, but I was afraid for the moment. I would go into detail about it, but due to the fact that it happened at work, I can only give you an overview.
There were a few issues today during the day...I guess I should describe the people involved first: Four men all close to six feet and taller, each weighing in at at least twice my weight (I know, that's not hard to do). Oh, and they probably each could have benched two of me. Then there was myself and one other person.
The men started yelling at each other, and I had to step inbetween them to keep anything from happening. Yeah, me stop anything from happenning. Me, a barely five foot and some change tall and 100lbs and some change, had to keep anything from happenning.
I had to look these men in the eye and tell them to sit down. I was TERRIFIED!!! Honestly, I was shaking for a good hour and a half after the incident.
What I am trying to say is, I took the energy from my fear, and I did what I needed to do. Even though I am five foot four, I felt seven feet tall.
I did not know what was going to come of the incident. I had to do my best and hope for the best outcome. Fear was all over me. Instead of showing my fearful energy, I took the energy to get the incident cleared up and finish my work.
If I can take my fear energy and get four men to sit down, I know that I don't need to be afraid of the intangible future because me in two pieces is what I thought my future was going to be today.
You never know what today is going to present. The outsome of today
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Today's Path: My Day
Even though I look outside and the ground is covered in white stuff, it hasn't snowed yet today. It sleeted most of the day today.
Not thinking last night when I went to bed, I didn't plan on getting up any earlier this morning even though I knew that it was not going to be a good traffic day. I actually woke up late. Some how I still made it to my 8:00 AM class, unlike most of the others.
After waiting until 11:00 AM for my Media Law class, I found out that all classes from noon one as well as Media Law were canceled. Exciting!...well except, for now I had to drive a half hour home.
Now there is a nice 3-4 inches of sleet on the ground, and it looks like tradition at Lindenwood will continue tomorrow. Lindenwood University, being the oldest school west of the Mississippi River, has never cancelled a full day of classes.
However, my brother doesn't have school for a second day in a row.
Enjoy the snow!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Today's Path: Even though it's Wednesday, "Every Monday Matters"
Tonight, after class, I went by Target to pick up a CD and a planner (imagine that, me trying to be organized. Good Luck!). Well, I could not find the one. Lately, I have been very picky about things. I find that I am a very picky eater. BUT, I digress...back to the planner.
I finally found a planner last year that worked for me. The days are vertical and go from Monday on the left to Sat/Sun on the right. Weird, I know, things go in order. But the days are vertical, and they work for me. Okay now to the point of the story. I couldn't find one. I just don't understand why they don't sell planners that start with March instead of January.
As I worked my way to the music section, I was distracted by the books. That's right I was distracted.
What is that over there on the other side of my room? Is that a new book? Have I read that before? Oops. Sorry, back to the store.
I was looking through the books when I came across this book called Every Monday Matter. I thumbed through it. It reminded me of this book that sits on one of my professor's, Kammie, desk that I drop in and read when I need something to do for the day. The book on the desk is called, no joke here, This Book Will Change Your Life. It has things to do each day that are just not ordinary.
Every Monday Matter is very similar, but the tasks have meaning behind them. A few include "Turn off the TV" and "Change a light bulb." Each task helps someone else besides you. It's just a way to give back and get others involved.
It was interesting to me that I went in for a planner and a CD, and I came out with a book, a pack of gum and something to do for the next 52 Mondays.
Here is some of the music for which I was looking, before the books.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Crazy Peanut
I finally caught Peanut in action. Everytime someone new comes over, Peanut goes crazy. Not a bad crazy, but crazy none the least.
Peanut does laps around the living room and then up and down the hallway. I am sorry about the quality. All I had was my parents 2.7mp Kodak camera.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Today's Path: Crash...no more sugar
Yes, I have now crashed from the enormous amount of sugar I have put into my body today. It is amazing what you can do with sugar. If you have enough in your system you can be the life of the party and the most annoying person at the party all in the course of five minutes.
Okay, so enough about sugar...wait my hand is still shaking...now enough about sugar. Today I have celebrated both of the above holidays. I believe that anyone can be your special Valentine. So I have several. However, at the same time, I am still a single person enjoying that fact that I can have as many Valentines as I want.
The one down side to this is that I didn't get a single red rose. One red rose that's all I ask. Is it to much for someone who has a dozen to give me just one??? Yes, I am the sucker for a red rose. If for some reason you get on my bad side...wait now that I am thinking about it, I don't think anyone is on my bad side nor has anyone been on it for awhile...But I digress.
Where was I?? Oh, yes, if you some how get on my bad side, it takes one red rose and that is it to get back on my good side. There is just something about red roses. I don't know what it is. It doesn't necessarily mean love to me...but there is just something about it.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Today's Path: Define Who I am - Part One (of Many)
On My 50 List, I have "Define Who I Am." I have been trying to work on this the past few weeks. I realized it is going to take a lot longer than I thought it ever would.
So like anything else I have broken it down into several parts. However, I only have the first part. I don't know what the future parts are.
I found out that in order to "Define Who I Am," I need to first define the words that I am going to use to describe who I am or affect me, mostly this time it is the second.
These word include, but are no where near limited to, fear, failure, success, love, passion and pride. Six words that are in some big way a part of me. Some influence me. Some help to explain why I do or don't do things.
Here are the definitions I have put to each of these in relationship to me:
Fear- Fear is a nasty four letter word until you learn how to use it. Fear is similar to nervousness. Many think of nervousness as a bad thing, but what they don’t know is how to harness the energy to make a speech or whatever they are doing better. Fear can be harnessed, too, and when it is you can do amazing things with it.
Failure- Seven letters. Success is seven letters. So which one are you so scared of? Both for some reason can be scary. Failure is not an option. The result may not be what you wished, but did you learn something? If so, it was a success. So why is it so hard to start something new? It is hard because you do not have enough control over it to make it what you want. You cannot see the end of it so you don’t want to start.
Love- Love is what makes the world go round. Love for life, family or anything else. Without love, no one would enjoy their job, and business as we know it would cease. We have the businesses we have because someone loved something and took the chance to make it.
Passion- Putting all your effort and energy into something to make it what you want it to be. Being passionate about life and the tasks you encounter during life, will help to ensure the fullest life. (could I use "life" again in the same sentence, I'm sure I could if I tried.)
Pride – Be proud of who you are and what you have done. So you haven’t found the cure for cancer, neither has anyone else. You are who you are because the self-confidence you have. Don’t let those around you get you down. Stand with your head high and kick ASS!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
My Voting Experiance
What a treat! Two post in the same day.
Tonight I went to vote in the primary. Of course it was raining still. This was the first Primary Election I have participated in. SUPER TUESDAY!!!
However, I was almost turned away. I had my ID and my voter’s card in hand when I walked in. I walked up to the table and handed the ladies behind the table my card. The lady sitting next to her asked if I was even 18 years old.
I handed her my driver’s license. I told her that I was going to be 21 in April. She still did not believe me. After a little convincing I was allowed to vote.
I know I look young, but come on. Everyone tells me to wait 10 or 15 years and then I will appreciate looking younger. I do look at least 18, right?
Today's Path: Missouri Weather: Love it or hate, it's ours
The plan today was to post about responsibility and how we shouldn't have to remind people constantly of things...and then I drove home.
On my way home traffic was horrible...It took an hour to make a drive that is suppose to take 20 minutes. But I'm not even going to post about the traffic. Instead, it is about the weather.
So here is the question, What am I holding? No, it's not snow. Nor is it salt.
That is hail. Yes, it hailed here today. It covered everything.
Not to be surprised by Missouri weather, but yesterday it was 73 degrees. Today it is in the 40's. Tomorrow it is going to be in the 30's with a chance of snow.
Oh, the joy of Missouri weather.
This is a street in a near by neighborhood.
Here is the lanes of Hwy 70. The lines were covered in snow.
Missouri weather, love it or hate it, it's ours.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Today's Path: StlBloggers Blog Carnival #7
5 people participated in this months Blog Carnival.
Elitsirk of Adventures in Motherhood wants to get another college degree, learn another language, travel and a few other things.
Michelle of Cat and Muse wants to do some traveling, write a book and get it published along with a few more things.
EduDiva of EduDiva wants to go do some traveling as well as getting her PhD.
Marijean of STL Working Mom would also like to do some traveling as well as having a book published.
Sarahlynn of Yeah, But Houdini Didn't Have These Hips wants to watch her kids grown up healthy and happy, organize her house completly and find a miracle cure for several things.
I finally finished My 50 List this month and am complete siked to start crossing things off.
Oh, by the way if anyone wants to go SkyDiving, some friends and I have plans to go in May if you would like to join us.
